How could I let this happen I had the world in my plams I had everything I asked for all I needed was time and yet like always I pushed snd pulled and grabbed more and more trying to fill my arms rather than take what I needed and for that it all fell now im left with nothing but a mess im a wreck I grab my pills and some rum and it helpef but now im back because alcohol wasnt my solution no if I was going to make it through im going to suffer I just wish I had you I know now what I had I want it back ill crawl on glass and reach the ends of the universe I need it back like no drug I need it I need it I want it to be here to hold mu hand and let me cry because right now im vroken im shattered I just want you back I wont be the way before youll bed cherished and remembered you matter to me its time I prove it BUT please!!!! Come back to me I dont want to live like this
None of it matters anymore im not turned on for anything im not interested in naked women now im numb to it unless its you....I cant be bothered by anyone no one else matters theyre all pawns now nothing matters and everyone will die and it doesn't bother me but right now I cant sleep I cant listen to music I cant watch a movie im sitting here updating again and again knowing youre not awake but uts all I can do that doesn't make me suicidal im trying baby I really am but I need your help I need you still I dont want to be around you but im not crippled ill walk on my own now but please come back I have nothing my guitar wont play my music is static and my movies are all dead and silent this world is rotten I can never live like this I need you you gave me life color and most of all you made my guitar sing you made her wail and yell you made her her and niw my guitar is a wooden box Come back I miss you already
